Feeling envy.

Sometimes I really envy my friends. Specifically those who are born or the whole family is in KL / PJ and they are staying together.

Main reason is because, their life, seems like so systematic, consistent, full of joy and always happy. I try to be happy always but sometimes it's hard. I think main reason I will feel this way is because I lost both my parent at young age. Feels like there is no one else that I can depend on. 

Many people, when they have problem or when they wanna do something, they will decide on their own, but if problem arise from there, they still have their parent, they can seek for advise from them. They are like the last wall behind them. However, for my brothers and I, we have none of those. We basically swallow everything on our own. Whatever problem we faced, we need to handle it on our own. 

Life is getting harder and when we grow older, a single mistake in decision making, will cause a big problem. So usually we will try to play as safe as possible. I am not willing to take big risk, if I do, it will be a risk within safe boundary. I don't dare to quit my job, and go to travel for 2 months without any income. I also don't dare to go freelancing full time. These are all a risk for me. While I envy those who dare to be full time entrepreneur, starting their own business or company, be it selling clothes, opening a restaurant or IT solutions company and so on, I know there are risk to all of that too. That's why I don't dare to do that.

Man.... sometimes, I really miss my mom..... a lot. I don't even remember when is the last time the whole family sit down properly at a round table to eat together. That's why I envy my friends because, most of them, still have chance to spend time with their family.

So if you are reading my blog..... please.... please spend more time together with your family. You never know when it will be the last time you eat together with them.

Few days trip to Kota Kinabalu

So I went to KK with my brothers. We wanted to go to Kundasang and island hopping.

Sorry, I got no picture in this post.

Luckily we are driving there, so going anywhere is also quite easy. But even if without car, you can pretty much travel anywhere in KK nowadays. Lots of people doing Grab and Uber, especially when there are a lot of discount or promocodes from Uber and Grab.

So we stay at nearby Jesselton Point, which is the place you get the package for island hopping (snorkeling, parasailing, zipline, jet ski, banana boat, flying fish, diving and so on). Don't straight pay for the amount displayed. Ask for discount because they usually will give discount.

Our accommodation is called The Bunk. It's cheap and located at good location. Many tourist and foreigner stays there because it is a cheap and strategic location. However, 2 nights of our stay, I got bitten by quite many bed bug. So we requested to checkout and get our refund back. So we moved to another cheap hotel nearby called Little Gaya Hotel. It's cheaper than many other hotel but it's clean and spacious, at least enough for us. Of course it is a lot more expensive than The Bunk, but I really rather pay extra than suffer.

The Bunk: RM 22 per bunk

Little Gaya Hotel: RM160 for 2 single beds, we add extra beds cost RM65. Total RM225 / 3, it will be RM75 each. 

For our island hopping, here's the price breakdown

Boat to go and back for 2 islands hopping : RM 35 

Parasailing: RM 70 each

Snorkeling equipment: RM 10 each 

Diving: RM 180 each 

Zipline: RM 68 each

Each of us take different combo.

Elder bro: Parasailing + Snorkeling. Total only RM 35+70+10 = 125

Me: Parasailing + Snorkeling + Zipline. Total only RM 35+70+10+68 = 193

Younger bro: Parasailing + Diving: Total only RM 35+70+180 = RM 285

There are 2 big shopping malls here called Suria Mall and Imago. If you have anything that you want to know more about this trip, just leave me a comment.

When luck turn into sorrows.

When I was a kid, my family and I stayed with my relatives. So when I was playing about 20 meter away from my parents, who are talking to my relative, I found RM5 on the ground and picked it up. I am so happy and ran towards my parent shouting "I found RM5!". RM5 is a big value for me at that time because it was about 20 years back. Unfortunately for me, my relative who is talking to my parent straight say "Oh, you found my RM5. That day I lost my RM5". I have no choice but to return it to her...... 

My elder brother's colleague, found RM5 in the office and she didnt ask the colleague whether anyone lost their RM5 or not. She used the money and buy food. Next day, she had stomach ache.

My younger brother's friend, found a wallet with RM500 inside. His friend is just a kid at that time. With such a big amount of money, of course he will tell his parent. So his mom kept the wallet and say "I will apply astro with this". A bit funny too because astro is recurring payment every month and how long can the RM500 last.

Outing with my brother

My younger brother pass by KL to stay in my room for 2 nights. So I went to fetch him using car at KL Sentral. Luckily, i went there using car because he has damn many luggage, all is super big. Although i am a bit regret that the traffic jam cause me use about one hour to reach a place that can be reached within 15 minutes. 

I think in total, he waited for about 3 hours for me because i finished my job at 7.30pm and still need to go Amway to buy some product for my customer before it close at 9.00pm.

We went to Kalakap SS2 again. I think the food there is not bad, thats why i introduced him to eat there. Total price about RM32.00. Quite expensive for 2 people meal. However, he said the food taste nice. So i think it should be worth it.

This is him waiting for food.

My meal

His meal

The next day, we went to sing K, arcade game and movie. What a money wasting day!!! 2 people sing K, eat and sing until satisfied. Watch Upside Down, which i think is not a bad movie. Quite satisfying with the whole day.

The next day, i got too tired and cannot wake up. My body is totally weak and pain. So he went ahead to eat breakfast and then he just go to LRT on his own. Feel so sorry but i think he is ok on his own. He is not a kid anymore right... haha

Dad to hospital

This morning, when i was asleep soundly, my phone ring. It was a message from my brother.

"Dad admitted to hospital"

I know it had been a long time since my dad been to hospital but now he is in hospital again. His physical condition is not good from the start. But now i believe its getting worse. He enjoyed too much when he was young. Even Nutrilite is not on time to help him now. 

When i receive this message, i realize that he might not be able to live long anymore. He is getting sicker....

Few months before my mother pass away, i always thought, she might be able to recover. I also thought, if my mom really died, i will be prepared for it, will not cry for too long or too much.... but in the end, i still cannot control myself. It is a life, a person who care for you the most since you were born, who will not cry over it.

I remember, everyone who cares for me the most in my life, pass away one by one. First is a girl from secondary school, she cares for me the most and i always spend time with her outside her house. That time i think i am in love with her. But after form 5, we contact each other less than usual. On one Sunday, i suddenly receive a message telling me that she passed away.... I was so shocked.... She is the one who care for me when i was inside the hospital, with my mom that time. I really feel sad and when i got home that day, i cried...

The next person is an advisor of my church. He is the one who cares me the most. I am so friendly with his child. We are like a family. He recognize what i had been doing in the church and I feel really safe and comfortable around the advisor. One day, he caught in an accident and he pass away after few days. Again, i was so sad and i also cried over it.

After that is my mom.

I always know that human will pass away one day but if that really happen to you, i bet you will not be able to hold your feeling and cry out loud. 

Treasure and appreciate everyone around you. Do not waste your time anymore. :'(

Sister and brother in KL

My sister.... well, my foster sister came to KL and i picker her up at TBS, Terminal Bersepadu Selatan which is located near to LRT Bandar Tasik Selatan. First day is my sister, Law Kai Ying and her friend  Ong Li Yun came. So i pick them up and guide them to Malaysia hotel nearby Bukit Bintang Monorail station. Nearby the hotel got so many massage parlour... omg...

So i brought them to eat at Lot 10. I think the place that got most choice of food should be here.

So i ordered bak kut teh...

Then i walked them back to their hotel and i went to my next activity.

The next day, they came to look for me nearby my house. About one hour journey. Its great they can endure it because i need to fetch my sis to hospital to get an injection. Then she realized she didn't brought her medical card. So her plan to get the injection failed. 

Then we went to TBS again to bring her 2 friends to Wira Hotel. A full day LRT journey is really tiring. But the next day, they travel on their own.

Saturday morning, my small brother come to KL and stay overnight at my room. He need to attend his friends wedding on the next day but we end up going sing K when he reached.

Its really a great weekend.