Last emo post.

This will be my last emo post in my blog. I will never write any emotional stuff anymore in future.

My dad passed away at 9.28pm 19 Aug 2013. I am not there when he passed away. But my small bro and I did rushed back to see him last week during Raya. He had seen us, eat and talk about everything what he wanted, and now, he had passed away. When i was there, he saw a lot of hallucination. Like Japanese bombing, his working mates and others. The last hallucination he saw today is mom. My mom who had passed away at 14 January 2007, he asked about her. Maybe he saw some hallucination about mom and thought she was still alive. Or his brain is moving backward.

My big bro told my small bro and I that my dad stopped breathing around 8.30pm. Doctor tried to save him using emergency rescue but the doctor did said that if within half hour my dad still cannot be saved, he will become in coma state. Doctor continued to do the emergency rescue until half hour later. My dad condition still has not becoming any better. My big brother with tears in his eyes, called me and my small brother to ask if wanted to continue to do the emergency rescue or not. I told my big brother that if can be saved also in comma state, then we better leave it. My small brother should said so too.

So the doctor give some medication to my dad so his heart can keep beating. Half hour later, which is about 9.28pm, his heart stopped beating. He had been reunited with my mom.

I am mentally prepared for these because my brothers and I had discussed about this before. However, when i was booking the flight in the office and after telling my boss about the emergency leave that i need to take to settle the funeral things, i couldn't hold my tears in the office and cried out. So I checked which flight is the cheapest, asked my small brother to buy it for me because i had no money left in my maybank account. In quite a poor state this month because had already bought 2 sets of flight ticket cost me around 1 thousand. 

Positively thinking, my dad had gone to a better place. No more suffering and he is now with my mom. I believe a more challenging life is now with my brothers and I. We are on our own. We can survive on our own. We don't need to depend on anyone. Although we are not making a lot of money, but what we have here is a fresh new start. I am looking forward to it.