New year wishlist

So in this new year, there are a few things that i wanted to achieve.

1. I want to have at least 10k in my savings.

2. I want to get to 75kg. Now i am at 80kg.

3. I want to have at least 200 business partners this year.

4. I want to have income at least 4.5k by the end of this year.

5. I want to have the best health and skin condition this year.

6. I want to be a very good guitarist

7. I want to be a good in badminton

8. I want to buy a new ipad.

9. I want to get a girlfriend :)

10. I want to go back Sibu at least 5 times

Dad to hospital

This morning, when i was asleep soundly, my phone ring. It was a message from my brother.

"Dad admitted to hospital"

I know it had been a long time since my dad been to hospital but now he is in hospital again. His physical condition is not good from the start. But now i believe its getting worse. He enjoyed too much when he was young. Even Nutrilite is not on time to help him now. 

When i receive this message, i realize that he might not be able to live long anymore. He is getting sicker....

Few months before my mother pass away, i always thought, she might be able to recover. I also thought, if my mom really died, i will be prepared for it, will not cry for too long or too much.... but in the end, i still cannot control myself. It is a life, a person who care for you the most since you were born, who will not cry over it.

I remember, everyone who cares for me the most in my life, pass away one by one. First is a girl from secondary school, she cares for me the most and i always spend time with her outside her house. That time i think i am in love with her. But after form 5, we contact each other less than usual. On one Sunday, i suddenly receive a message telling me that she passed away.... I was so shocked.... She is the one who care for me when i was inside the hospital, with my mom that time. I really feel sad and when i got home that day, i cried...

The next person is an advisor of my church. He is the one who cares me the most. I am so friendly with his child. We are like a family. He recognize what i had been doing in the church and I feel really safe and comfortable around the advisor. One day, he caught in an accident and he pass away after few days. Again, i was so sad and i also cried over it.

After that is my mom.

I always know that human will pass away one day but if that really happen to you, i bet you will not be able to hold your feeling and cry out loud. 

Treasure and appreciate everyone around you. Do not waste your time anymore. :'(

In Love?

Since not really many people will come across this blog, i guess this is a good place for me to write whatever i want. :D

When i saw so almost all of my friends are having girlfriend and boyfriend, actually i thought of having one myself too. But its just hard to decide who to go for. Since there are too many good girls around me. 

Almost all the girls that i like is younger or same age with me.

2 of the same ages, 1 of them is 3 years younger, 1 of them is 7 years younger and another one is 8 years younger. Omg, am i a lolicon? Hahaha

I really should set down properly and think what should I do. Shouldn't mess around again like what I am doing now. 

God, please give me strength and health to do what I should. :D