Last emo post.

This will be my last emo post in my blog. I will never write any emotional stuff anymore in future.

My dad passed away at 9.28pm 19 Aug 2013. I am not there when he passed away. But my small bro and I did rushed back to see him last week during Raya. He had seen us, eat and talk about everything what he wanted, and now, he had passed away. When i was there, he saw a lot of hallucination. Like Japanese bombing, his working mates and others. The last hallucination he saw today is mom. My mom who had passed away at 14 January 2007, he asked about her. Maybe he saw some hallucination about mom and thought she was still alive. Or his brain is moving backward.

My big bro told my small bro and I that my dad stopped breathing around 8.30pm. Doctor tried to save him using emergency rescue but the doctor did said that if within half hour my dad still cannot be saved, he will become in coma state. Doctor continued to do the emergency rescue until half hour later. My dad condition still has not becoming any better. My big brother with tears in his eyes, called me and my small brother to ask if wanted to continue to do the emergency rescue or not. I told my big brother that if can be saved also in comma state, then we better leave it. My small brother should said so too.

So the doctor give some medication to my dad so his heart can keep beating. Half hour later, which is about 9.28pm, his heart stopped beating. He had been reunited with my mom.

I am mentally prepared for these because my brothers and I had discussed about this before. However, when i was booking the flight in the office and after telling my boss about the emergency leave that i need to take to settle the funeral things, i couldn't hold my tears in the office and cried out. So I checked which flight is the cheapest, asked my small brother to buy it for me because i had no money left in my maybank account. In quite a poor state this month because had already bought 2 sets of flight ticket cost me around 1 thousand. 

Positively thinking, my dad had gone to a better place. No more suffering and he is now with my mom. I believe a more challenging life is now with my brothers and I. We are on our own. We can survive on our own. We don't need to depend on anyone. Although we are not making a lot of money, but what we have here is a fresh new start. I am looking forward to it. 

Top 5 reasons you shouldn't be fat.

There is no survey had been done, just personal opinion.

1. You shouldn't be fat because you will cause the person who sit beside you in bus, LRT or airplane feel uncomfortable. You are taking up their space, leaving them so less left.
2. You shouldn't be fat because whenever you are in a car, whether you are driving or not, you will cause the car to be unbalanced. You will cause the car absorber to spoil faster.
3. You shouldn't be fat because you will slow down many people. You slowed down your team in a game, you slowed down the whole group in a bus because you cannot get off the bus faster, you slowed down the the transport of people from 1st floor to 20th floor because your weight alone is enough to cover up for 2 people and so on. You slow!
4. You shouldn't be fat because you die faster. Although some skinny people also die fast, but fat people definitely will get high blood pressure, diabetes and heart attack easier.
5. You shouldn't be fat because you will be lack of stamina. A little bit of walking cause you to feel tired. You cannot work efficiently compared to healthier or skinnier people. No matter what you do, you lack of stamina.... No matter what...

Current dad situation.

My dad had been in hospital for few weeks. He started to be moved in to hospital when my big brother found out that his legs got some maggots. Its really disgusting when i thought about it.

Doctor inspected him and said the maggots is there eating the flesh because the meat is dead. To cure this situation, they need to take off any place that is infected by the maggots. Or any dead meat. Few days before operation, the nurse found out his thumb also got some maggots.

Today is the day of the operation. It is quite sudden when my big bro just asked my small bro and my for our agreement on the amputation of my dad's leg. My small bro and I agreed. I think there is no other, so i agreed to it.

Now the operation is done. The leg amputation is done. The right leg is gone until the knee. I don't think his life will be the same anymore. Not if he don't want to go through the physiology treatment. I hope God had a better arrangement for him which i don't know what is it.

My dad and my big bro had been very negative for all these. My dad scolded the doctor vulgar words. However, i guess the doctor had been used to it la. The doctor is trying to save life. Not trying to kill him. Its just my dad himself cannot accept the fact that his leg is gone. And his thumb too.