Feeling envy.

Sometimes I really envy my friends. Specifically those who are born or the whole family is in KL / PJ and they are staying together.

Main reason is because, their life, seems like so systematic, consistent, full of joy and always happy. I try to be happy always but sometimes it's hard. I think main reason I will feel this way is because I lost both my parent at young age. Feels like there is no one else that I can depend on. 

Many people, when they have problem or when they wanna do something, they will decide on their own, but if problem arise from there, they still have their parent, they can seek for advise from them. They are like the last wall behind them. However, for my brothers and I, we have none of those. We basically swallow everything on our own. Whatever problem we faced, we need to handle it on our own. 

Life is getting harder and when we grow older, a single mistake in decision making, will cause a big problem. So usually we will try to play as safe as possible. I am not willing to take big risk, if I do, it will be a risk within safe boundary. I don't dare to quit my job, and go to travel for 2 months without any income. I also don't dare to go freelancing full time. These are all a risk for me. While I envy those who dare to be full time entrepreneur, starting their own business or company, be it selling clothes, opening a restaurant or IT solutions company and so on, I know there are risk to all of that too. That's why I don't dare to do that.

Man.... sometimes, I really miss my mom..... a lot. I don't even remember when is the last time the whole family sit down properly at a round table to eat together. That's why I envy my friends because, most of them, still have chance to spend time with their family.

So if you are reading my blog..... please.... please spend more time together with your family. You never know when it will be the last time you eat together with them.

Hard work paying off.

Some people might not agree because no matter how hardworking they are, they couldnt get what they want. Sometimes passion and talent comes in different package. You might have passion in teaching but your talent is in pottering. What should you do?

I have no answer. This post is about myself, so I dont have answer for you. Hahaha. 

Since young, my talent is in maths. I am good in math to a point where pure maths test, which is considered as hardest test in school, form 6, I manage to get full marks. But good in math doesnt mean I am passionate in maths. I discovered my passion in programming after a bit of struggle after form 6. Since then, I didnt practise maths a lot. I just used it wherever needed in my passion. 

Programming doesnt require a big talent in maths. Logic is more important. Formula can be googled. However, I recently discover, why not I program a website where it can generate maths questions. It will require a further step of maths knowledge because instead of solving it, I need to know how to generate it and provide the answer at the same time. 

It will be fun for sure. Since then, I had started this small project and found a partner to work together with me. My partner who work together with me is really smart too. 

It is really exciting seeing where this thing will go. I really hope we are able to change how Malaysia education system works. Revolutionalize it and make it online. 

Back to Senior Web Developer.

My current job position is Application Developer, sometimes it's misleading. Some recruiter thought I am Mobile Apps Developer but I am not. And there are no senior title in the current position.

Accepting this new job "Senior Web Developer" is definitely something that I want because of few reason.

- It's doing backend programming.
- It's senior position
- Slightly better pay
- Potential startup with brilliant boss and colleagues.

So I had decided to accept this offer. I am quite excited now.

Getting another job offer

I had been continuously being headhunted by job recruiter. I ignored all of them.

But recently, my friend from first company, approached me and told me that his company is hiring Web Developer. They need someone who is proficient in Laravel framework. As for front end, I am not sure what database are they gonna use but anything should be fine.

After the interview to discuss about benefits and remuneration, I was offered an amount that was not to my liking. So I rejected on the phone call. I told them my final stand of the offer that I can take on.

Yesterday, they called and agreed to give me the amount that I requested. Now is the time to do some thinking and decide whether I should take the job or not.